i'm in love with meenah peixes

hey mimi, ive been feeling really down lately. ive never really known you super well or anything, but like were friends i guess right? haha. (ive seen you at past meets and weve hung out a little). im having some mom troubles which is giving me some depression problems and my depression is kinda an off/on thing. and ive been having thoughts about suicide and just UGGGH i dont know what to do.

Mon, 29 Apr 2013 00:32:00 -0700

i think this has been sitting here for a while, i’m so sorry that i didn’t answer earlier.. i’m so happy you came to me for help though, it’s never good to keep these things to yourself.

i have mom troubles too.. i don’t know what your mom is doing, but i do know that parents like to think they always know what’s best for their children and are often ignorant of the effect their behaviors have on them. they will say hurtful things thinking that it will be for the child’s benefit, that “tough love” is the only key to fix a situation, but in return it only eats away at the child and leaves them feeling like they’re not good enough.

but you are good enough. never let yourself feel as though you need to reach up to their standards. you know yourself better than anyone else does. you know your limitations and your faults, and to counter that you also know everything that’s great about you. your mother can’t always know how to help you, but you can. if you find that one day you’ve overcame even the tiniest obstacle then celebrate that. treat yourself nicely and make yourself happy. the happier you are the more people will notice. the more people notice you’re happy, the more they’ll stop seeing you as a negative person and they’ll stop trying to find the points that make you negative. if you surround yourself in positivity then it will be harder for people to bring you down.

i don’t really.. know if my thoughts got across right or if this helped you any. i hope it did. i really hope those thoughts go away.. please tell me if i can help you any further. i don’t want my friends to be sad

hi everyone i’m back from my .. break. I’m sorry. I guess everyone deserves an...

Mon, 29 Apr 2013 00:31:38 -0700

hi everyone i’m back from my .. break. I’m sorry. I guess everyone deserves an explanation for my absence.

For a while now I’ve been feeling really low. I don’t even know where to start, things just kept going wrong and they all piled on top of each other until I felt that I was completely helpless. Every little thing made me feel horrible and I just.. shut down.

I needed to take long breaks to cope with everything, but in doing so I distanced myself from the people I cared about and offered no explanation to them and left them in the dark.

I started to feel even worse and I thought about doing a lot of things I haven’t thought about doing in so long. I’m proud to say I didn’t do those things, but the thoughts were intense and I was terrified of myself. Everything just seemed so hopelessly wrong and I felt like everything was my fault and that things would be better if I was gone. The figures got worse and I was so scared and sad and.. I just don’t think I’ve ever been this bad before.

I’m feeling better. I’m not 100% yet, and I might not be for a long while. I’ll probably keep taking breaks because I really need them in order to keep myself going.. but I’m better.

I’m not going to go into much detail about what’s happened, I’m sorry.. I’m getting really anxious just typing this and hsidofjkelg I’m going to go to bed after posting a few things. I’m really starting to panic when I think about posting this. There are many people I need to apologize to and I’m going to need to build up the courage for that and I just can’t take much more tonight i’m really sorry

i just went through your face tag and gosh you're my headcanon meenah not to mention one of the most gorgeous girls i've ever seen

Fri, 22 Feb 2013 20:58:40 -0800

FSJDFLFDKHLGKES??? oh my GOD I’ HAVEn’T EVEN FINISHED MY LCOPSLAY YET I”m

BLUSHING REALLY HARD THAT IS SUCH A SWEET THING OF YOU TO SAY THANK YOU… SO MuCH fksldk ; v ;!!

(mimi im voicing rosemary)

Fri, 22 Feb 2013 20:43:33 -0800

i’M THERE RN AHHHHHHHHHHH

How would you feel if I said I sometimes ship partial genderbend ships? Like, I like seeing/RPing blackrom between male Karkat and female Equius, but not male Karkat and male Equius? I don't think it's the ONLY way a Karquius ship could work, just that's how I like it. But people have ripped into me for being homophobic for it, and I don't know.

Fri, 22 Feb 2013 18:12:00 -0800

I.. I can’t honestly say I really have an opinion on it! But as long as the nature of it is not homophobic then I don’t really see any harm in it

Hey, have you seen something called MotivationStuck?

Fri, 22 Feb 2013 17:07:00 -0800

yes!! i love the blog a lot, it does a good job of picking you up when you’re down 8’)

thinking about the most recent update makes me really happy likE??? they’re all on the same...

Fri, 22 Feb 2013 17:06:09 -0800

thinking about the most recent update makes me really happy

likE??? they’re all on the same ship??? together??? being friends???

they’re probably so happy

Part of me worries that if I ever de-anon and try to start a legit friendship not built on a foundation of problem-spewing, it won't work out. That the friend-dokis just won't happen.

Fri, 22 Feb 2013 12:08:00 -0800

I’ll admit I’m not the most exciting person to talk to, and a lot of the times its hard for me to get comfortable with…talking ahah ; v ;

But I love to make friends anyway and I’ve enjoyed listening to you so far, so maybe being friends won’t be as hard as we both think 8’)

You’re free to stay on, anon though! My ask box is always there for you.

ninjies: hurry it up peixes

Fri, 22 Feb 2013 11:56:16 -0800

ninjies:

hurry it up peixes

but seriously i think you're really cool and neat and i wish I could meet you in person! (and i mean i live somewhat close hint hint actually no wait that's creepy and weird)

Fri, 22 Feb 2013 10:12:00 -0800

Fhdjdjhf oh my god you big sweetheart I don’t think it’s creepy at all?? If you want I can give you my skype so we can chat and maybe one day we can hang out! ; v ;

My engineering teacher’s first name is Mena but it’s pronounced like Meenah 8’) I wonder if I can...

Fri, 22 Feb 2013 09:22:00 -0800

My engineering teacher’s first name is Mena but it’s pronounced like Meenah 8’)

I wonder if I can get him to wear my wig

rarnonaflowers: fuckin adorable little shits

Fri, 22 Feb 2013 08:24:46 -0800

rarnonaflowers:

fuckin adorable little shits

Photo

Fri, 22 Feb 2013 07:17:44 -0800

kyleehenke: ket3: ahoy m8tey, the pirates are coming oh god...

Fri, 22 Feb 2013 07:13:36 -0800

kyleehenke:

ket3:

ahoy m8tey, the pirates are coming

oh god my body is ready

scribbledog: ok i swear now that ill do better keeping to my...

Fri, 22 Feb 2013 07:10:56 -0800

scribbledog:

ok i swear now that ill do better keeping to my unspoken rule that when i get a request ill have something to show for it the next day

sorry this is kinda garish besides being a little over-due ; _ ;

i really wanna draw more varsity jackets now though :D

thank you viri ❤

I've tried suicide twice so far in my life and yeah, the occasional suicidal thought pops up now and then, and this douche comes to me acting like suicide can just be added as a random plot point just for the sake of sadness? Telling me not to get angry when someone draws detailed suicide just when they're having a minor bad day? The FUCK are they smoking?

Thu, 21 Feb 2013 22:32:00 -0800

obviously some hard shit because they’re out of their fucking mind, suicide is.. being desperate enough to escape from something that one would end their own life. that’s a life right there.. a whole human being with friends and family and a lifetime’s worth of stories to tell so saying that suicide is somethig???simple????? nO.

you qt with ur qt art and ur qt face gosh darn stop it

Thu, 21 Feb 2013 20:33:00 -0800

fhisdofSDKHIO I’MFHSD???? THANK YOU SO MUCH FRIEnd why is everyone being so sweet to me lately ahhfisdo

I feel like my thank yous aren’t giving enough definition to how.. grateful i am for your kindness omfhsdiogkfsdl

Help me help me help me I've been completely burned out on anger because I just got an anon that defends using suicide as a casual plot point for 'lovely sadness', who said 'suicide is just a thing that happens', and all other sorts of shit. Help.

Thu, 21 Feb 2013 20:31:00 -0800

okAY WOAH THAT IS NOT OKAY. Suicide is not something people can just take lightly I’m not even the one talking to them and I’m upset??? PLEASE YELL AT THEM FOR ME IT IS NOT JUST A THING THAT HAPPENS

I also said 'I could have the plague', 'I could be wearing a very unjaunty hat', and 'I could be one of those people who thinks you're not allowed to ship Signless with anyone other than Disciple' u3u Quality burns/jokes.

Thu, 21 Feb 2013 19:35:00 -0800

omfG that first one though

They were all 'bluh bluh bluh you fucked up a friendship one time you're shit' and then what made me feel better was me saying 'I could be worse, I could be Fred Phelps.' ouo

Thu, 21 Feb 2013 18:16:55 -0800

oH MY GOD.. THAT WAS A GOOD BURN but jfc that’s really cruel of those anons to go after something like that 8( I’m glad you gave them that